Gerard loved to draw. It was one of his passions along with song writing. He had a variety of sketchbooks scattered around the tour bus and his suitcases; he even probably had a few in his brothers bags. But this sketchbook was different. No one was allowed to look in this sketchbook but him. NO one. This was where he drew out his most private fantasies; things he wanted no one to know, and knew no one would understand.
Mikey wandered through the bus, looking for something to do. He noticed his brother drawing in his 'secret sketchbook'. *I wonder what he draws in there....* Mikey wondered to himself. He sat down next to his brother.
"Hey Gee." He said. He noticed his older brother jumped slightly and quickly hid what he was drawing from view. "Whatcha drawin'?"
"Umm...." Gerard looked around nerviously. "I--Just....Nothing really..." He replied lamely.
"Well, can I see?" Mikey asked, holding his hand out for the sketchbook.
Gerard shook his head quickly. He hated keeping secrets from his brother, but at the same time he knew Mikey wouldn't understand, would hate him.
"C'mon Gee. We know everything about each other, we share everything, lemme see." Mikey pressed on.
"You wouldn't agree with what you saw..." Gerard whispered.
"Let me be the judge of that, Gee." Mikey murmured softly. "C'mon."
Reluctantly, Gerard handed over the old sketchbook. He waited for Mikey to start yelling, to start calling him a sick fuck, that he never wanted anything to do with him again.
Mikey slowly flipped through the pages, seeing depictions of he and his brother doing some...rather interesting things. Rather sexual things. Mikey stopped at the last one, the one Gerard was working on when Mikey came over just moments before. It was of the two of them, only he (Mikey) was lying at the head of a large bed, with Gerard's mouth between his legs. His face showed obvious pleasure and Gerard appeared to be smirking around his mouthful of Mikey's nether regions.
Mikey slowly looked up at his brother. Gerard was looking at the ground in shame, his face bright red. "Gee, is this......how you think of us?" Mikey whispered, moving a little closer to the older man.
Gerard looked up, "Yeah...Yeah I do, Mikes..." he murmured.
Mikey inched a little closer, to the point where the two brothers' thighs were brushing slightly. "Did you know that....I've thought of us like this too?" he asked softly.
Gerard's eyes widened. "I....had no idea." His body was suddenly on fire from the slight contact of their legs and the information his brother had just told him.
Mikey nodded shyly, feeling his cheeks grow pink. Suddenly, Gerard placed his hand on his brother's cheek, turned his face toward him and kissed him slowly, sliding his tongue gently against Mikey's full lower lip. Mikey whimpered softly, tangling his fingers in his brothers long black hair. Mikey opened his mouth eagerly for Gerard to slide his tongue in and let their tongues fight for dominance over one another.
Gerard felt his pants getting uncomfortably tight and knew he had to stop before they got too ahead of themselves in the middle of the bus. He pulled away reluctantly, hearing Mikey whimper and try to move to reattach their mouths.
Mikes, not now, the guys might walk in...Later, when were at the hotel. He panted, placing a small kiss on Mikeys forehead.
Mikey nodded, We better have a room together.
Gerard laughed softly, holding the younger Way close to his chest as their breathing slowed.
That night they got their room assignments, and the Ways were put together without question. When they got to their room, they put their things down, locked the door and were soon locked in a passionate embrace. They fell lightly on the bed, their clothes came off quickly, and Mikey began to become self conscious. Gerard pulled them both under the blankets and Mikey covered himself over quickly.
Mikes, whats up? I just wanna see you... Gerard murmured against his brothers neck, kissing softly.
Mikey blushed as his brothers hands coaxed him out from the blankets. He gasped when he felt his brothers erection brush his, and moaned when Gerard started moving his hips against him. Mikey thrust upwards, Gee...stop teasing....
Gerard chuckled softly and whispered, Are you ready?
Mikey nodded, feeling a wave of nervousness rush over him. He wanted his brother, but was scared that he wasnt going to be good enough for him.
Gerard brushed his fingertips over Mikeys cheek. Its okay baby, Ill be gentle, I promise. he whispered, kissing the younger Ways cheek gently, then getting up to get a bottle of lube and a condom from his bag. He held up the condom, Do you want to use this? he asked.
Mikey shook his head. No, I just want you.
Gerard smiled before crawling up the bed to his baby brother. He coated his fingers with lube, placing the first one at Mikeys entrance. Tell me if you need me to stop okay? He looked up at Mikey for the go-ahead. Mikey looked at Gerard, hesitated for half a second before nodding, sliding his legs a little farther apart.
Gerard leaned forward to place a quick kiss on his brothers lips before slipping his finger in, allowing Mikey to get used to the feeling. Mikey squeezed his eyes shut, caught somewhere between pain and pleasure at the strange feeling. Slowly, after a few moments, the pain went away, and he pushed against Gerard's hand, wanting to feel more.
Gerard began to move his finger slowly in and out of Mikey, stretching him slightly. "I'm going to add another one, is that okay?" he asked.
Mikey nodded, feeling his erection twitch slightly when he felt Gerards finger brush his sweet spot. Gerard slid a second finger into his little brother. He hoped he wasn't hurting him too bad. He would never be able to forgive himself if he truly hurt Mikey.
Mikey gasped a little. There was more pain this time. He didn't want to upset Gerard though, so he tried to play it off as a gasp of pleasure. Gerard froze immediately when he heard Mikey gasp. Remembering his first time, he knew that had to have hurt. "Shh, baby. It'll be okay." he kissed Mikey's forehead. Mikey nodded and took a few deep breaths before telling Gerard he was ready to continue. He wasn't about to stop when they'd already come this far. Gerard moved his fingers in and out of Mikey with even more care than before, scissoring him apart as gently as he could. He knew there would be no way for him to prevent Mikey's pain 100% but at least he could make sure it was only a slight discomfort. "Lemme know when you're completely ready."
Mkey nodded. "I'm okay, really." he whispered softly. "Keep going."
"Are you positive, Mikey? This is all for you. If you're not ready then say so.
Without hesitation Mikey held his brother's face in his hands, stared deep into his eyes and whispered, "I'm ready. Really. I want to do this with you."
Gerard coated his cock with a generous amount of lubricant, intent on making this as pleasurable to his little brother as he could. He positioned himself at his brother's opening. "Really ready?"
Mikey nodded slowly, biting his lower lip, starting to get nervous again. This was it. He was finally going to have Gerard the way he'd wanted him for as long as he could remember. And while that thought excited him like crazy, it also scared the hell out of him.
Gerard pushed into Mikey slowly, trying to minimize all of his brother's discomfort, kissing his neck to distract the younger boy. Mikey was once more between pain and pleasure. He wasn't sure which feeling was greater. He whimpered softly, not wanting Gerard to stop, yet just as nervous as ever. He tried relaxing a little, and it seemed to help.
Gerard brought his lips to Mikey's once again, then pulled away "I wont move until you want me to." He ran his finger tips over the top of his brother's thighs and up to tease his cock with a few firm strokes.
Mikey gasped then moaned quietly, relaxing his body completely. The pain had ebbed away for the most part. "Keep going" he whispered breathlessly to Gerard.
Gerard began at a slow pace, pushing all the way in and pulling almost all the way out, but not being too rough. He didn't want to hurt the boy. Mikey slowly grew used to the feeling, and began moaning, wanting Gerard to move quicker, but afraid the pain will come back. Gerard took one hand and slipped it into Mikey's, entangling their fingers. He noticed Mikey seemed to be getting used to the feeling. Gerard angled himself differently before pulling out and nearly slamming into Mikey, hitting his sweet spot dead on. Mikey nearly screamed in pleasure, digging his fingernails hard into the back of the older boys hand, nearly drawing blood.
"That good, Mikes?" He smiled, nipping at his brother's neck.
"So....good...." Mikey was barely able to pant out. He slid his free hand up Gerard's back, scratching his fingernails up and down the smooth skin, biting his lower lip in pleasure.
Gerard let out a low moan, continuing his hard thrusts at the same angle, stroking Mikey with his free hand. Mikey dug his nails in harder, moaning a little louder. He leaned forward slightly and bit down sharply on Gerard's neck, in the back of his mind hoping he hadn't bitten to hard. Gerard gasped in pleasure. Pain was one of his kinks. He thrust more erratically into his brother, crashing their lips together. Mikey sunk his teeth into his brothers soft lower lip. He moaned at the roughness of Gerard's thrusts. Gerard moaned at the pain once more. Mikey knew just how to send him over the edge. He thrust hard a few more times before releasing hard into his brother. Mikey moaned loudly, the feeling of his brother's release sending him over the edge. He released all over Gerard's stomach, digging his nails once more into the older man's back.
Gee panted hard, then leaned down and kissed Mikey. "Love you, Mikes."
Mikey smiled, his eyes half closed. "Love you, too, Gee." he whispered, kissing the wound he'd made on his brother's neck.
They laid there for a long while, kissing and whispering their love for one another until eventually their breathing evened out, and they fell asleep, tangled sweetly together.